Do something! Anything! For goodness sake, why can’t do something that can help you and others at the same time? You can be pathetic but I know you do nothing because you are just scared. You’re scared of what will happen next to the point that you feel like you are going to do something that will hurt yourself really bad. Come on. You know that isn’t the answer. Do something productive. Make him proud!
So stop it! Stop feeling bad about yourself and fix your problem. It’s your problem so fix it. You know you have to whether you like it or not. So fix it. Fix it!