Let Me Be Me

Let me fly

Away from everyone else

So I can be free

From your ego

And others demands

So I can finally be me

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Confession #04

I hate being alive. All the pain I’ve gone through feels so much that I’m impressed I lived this long but always searching for it like a moth to a flame. Why did all this happened to me? Is it because I deserve to be mistreated? Is it because I don’t deserve to be happy? Maybe I’m nothing but a wasted space that no one wants to be with. Am I good enough? Smart enough? What am I? And who should I become?

Confession #01

I’m not looking forward for 2019. Quite frankly, I’m devastated because of doing all the wrong things I’ve done to myself and others.

The last 2 years, I’ve made my life interesting both good and bad. Now I just want to stop and finally settle down into what I want. I must admit I still don’t know what I want. Or maybe I do. Or even what makes me happy but I want to bring back the true, pure form of me that I’ve been hiding away from. It’s time to shine bright for myself. Next year and the following year, I will do something that inspire others to be the best by being the best.

Stream of Consciousness #08

Dear Me,

Wake up. Not this again. Wake up! You need to wake up! I know you still have feelings for him. You are just using hostility to lash out and giving him a reason to leave you. I know you like him like A LOT. So much that your hearts hurt when he is not there. So stop pretending and wake up! Wake up damn it! Do I have to slap you?! I know you will regret it so wake up.

Don’t you remember the little girl long ago you wished for this moment. The moment when someone finally choose you and only you. Now look at you. What the hell?! You want this. I know you do. So stop being so cold. People don’t like that. You need to remember again, don’t you. The dream you had and now it’s somewhere hidden in your mind just because you don’t like being hurt.

Maybe. During this time apart, someone else’s poor soul will make you realize that. Realize what you lost.

So please. Just. Wake. Up.

Kind regards,

You ❤